First Time Cosplaying

After all the times I’ve been going to Anime Expo these past few years, I actually cosplayed for the first time. And it was about time that I did! As Marie from Persona 4 Golden.

What’s wonderful is that I was with Leroy and Lizzie, who were already seasoned cosplayers, and Yuki, of course, to accompany me as my Yu. Heh. :3


Though I only went for a day this year, it was awesome knowing that I got to go to the Fate/Stay Night UBW event and hang out with my friends.

After AX ended, I just feel motivated to seek out a more ambitious cosplay venture. What’s next?!?! I’m still brainstorming~ Just know that I feel like making armor or some giant weapon. Huehuehue.

Too Quiet

Honestly, my mind is blank. It hasn’t been that way in a while. It’s quiet. Too quiet. I kinda like it. Despite the fact that I have an English written final on Tuesday, everything’s pretty bland.

I miss this feeling. The feeling when I could think freely for myself. When I could just escape by playing a game or just jam on the guitar. I don’t have time for any of those anymore! It’s silly to think about it. When we were younger, we thought that getting older would garner us that freedom. And now that we’re here, surely we have the freedom to do whatever we want. Or something close to whatever we want. But now, we have to decide for ourselves which choice to make! Which we’ll be responsible for!

Rachel called me tonight and asked if I could lead worship with her at Ventura next Friday. Supposedly, I was going to perform at Alden’s acoustic gig again then. Afterwards, I was planning to head to The Bridge. Perhaps I’ll have to change my plans. I’ll need to choose what’s right. Oh, responsibility.

I’ll most likely choose going to Ventura.

I tried making milk tea boba earlier. Without the boba, though. FAIL. It didn’t taste that bad. I just need to try again.

Sigh. I want to escape and run away again. I long for those summer days. Hah, I long to play Ragnarok Online again. Guh, I miss being a kid. So I’m sitting here with my iTunes on shuffle listening to the game’s soundtrack.

I’ve always wondered how it would be like to live in Midgard. Silly, I know. But just think about it! Casting spells, going on hunts. It would be pretty cool if every area you went through had background music. Life would be pretty interesting. Scratch the fact that you get beaten and killed. But then again, you get to respawn! Just make sure you saved at the nearest Kafra!

Dork mode unleashed. Haha.

I’m thinking of playing Ragnarok again when summer arrives. But who knows if I’ll even have time to play it? I wonder if there will be any classes I could take during that season. Mom’s also asking me about going on an internship. Hmm. Money? Education? I do wonder. There are pros and cons on both sides. And also, I still want to hang out!

So. Many. Choices. Can’t. Comprehend.


Anyway, I should try to do something productive. I’d make myself a dango daikazoku but I still can’t find my sculpey around the house. Oh well. Back to square one. Blank. It isn’t that bad.

The Place I’ll Return To Someday

Surely, I did. If you didn’t already know, the title of this post is the opening theme of Final Fantasy IX. FFIX happens to be my favorite out of all the FFs. It’s been a while since I’ve played it. Probably around eight years ago. I can vaguely recall.

I stumbled upon a fandub on YouTube earlier this week. Now, I’m not a fan of fandubs. Heck, I’m not a fan of dubbing itself. I despise it when I find out that any anime in general gets butchered by the english language!

Nah-roo-toe. Sa-KOO-ruh. Sas-Kei.

Anyway, I’m kind of drifting off the point. My point is that I’ll make an exception for this one.

This YouTube channel fandubbed the entire disc one of FFIX. I spent around two days watching the entire thing, and I can’t wait for more! The characters’ voices were exactly how I pictured them to sound like. Zidane’s voice sounds a little lower than I imagined. As for Quina, I never really thought how s/he would sound like since I could never tell what s/he was. Lol. I guess I imagined Quina having a lower-ish voice compared to his/her high given voiceover. Other than that, it was pretty good. They nailed Brahne’s voice. Seriously. It’s hilarious!

You know what bugs me? Is when people don’t recognize FFIX as being up there with all the other FFs. When people think of FF, they immediately think “FFVII is teh bestest!” or “Lionheart PWNZ you!” Other people judge it too quickly. Most of the people I know don’t bother with FFIX since they think it’s weird. Most of their opinions rely on the fact that the characters don’t look normal.

Yeah, alright, so they don’t look like normal human beings. They comprise mostly of animorphs. Okay, just because the hero doesn’t meet the same height requirement as Squall or Cloud doesn’t mean he sucks. Oh, and just because he has a tail? Puhlease.

FFVII has so many glitches in itself. Cloud is never clear with his emotions. He never makes it apparent with which girl he goes for. Hence, the absurd amount of pairings. Tifa or Aeris? I think it’s pretty clear that Aeris’ heart belongs to Zack; Cloud just reminds her of him. She said that. And Aeris? Innocent? She’s one manipulative little lady and I commend her for that. LOL. Tifa kicks butt. She belongs to Cloud. End of story. Haha.

FFVIII? What bothered me much is the group’s ridiculous background. They all just happen to come from the same orphanage when they were young (with the exception of Rinoa, of course), and they coincidentally all end up together. They forget about this because they’ve been using GFs for a long while. Really? Blame the GFs for memory loss? I find that their back stories did not make any sense.

Don’t get me wrong. I love FFVII and FFVIII, but they were pretty ridiculous in so many cases.

I’ve only played FFVII to FFXII. And with that, Final Fantasy IX still stands as being my most favorite out of all of them. Exquisite story lines and outstanding character development. Not to mention their back stories? Awesome. Although what just bothers me about the game is the ending. Where in the world did this random final boss come from? I’ve exhausted all my elixirs on Kuja and that other guy just happened to pull a but-wait-there’s-more!

I can’t wait for the day when I’ll be able to get myself a copy of Final Fantasy IX again. Not to mention the time to play it. Haha. So while I’m waiting, I shall tune in to the game’s amazing soundtrack. Nobuo Uematsu is a genius, isn’t he?

Revived, Inspired and Genesis Trees?!

A few days ago, I kicked back and finished my Kingdom Hearts II game. It’s about the second time that I did. First time I did was back in the Philippines. I moved and left my PS2 and all my video games with my relatives on the other side of the world. Anyway, I didn’t really intend to finish KH2 this winter. I guess it just happened.

I left my new PlayStation 2 untouched after summer break had ended since fall semester began. So much for summer, ey? It was barely two weeks, but that’s a whole different story. Anyway, I was back to adventuring with my beloved Sora, Donald and Goofy. Defeated Xemnas. Hooray. Ahh yes, I quivered with fear~ Silly Nobody. But indeed, Kingdom Hearts’ villainous motives always seem to amuse me.

The ending wasn’t as satisfying as the first time. Maybe because I was rushed into it. Yes, you read that right. I was rushed into it. I didn’t say I rushed myself into it, but rather I was rushed into it by a specific someone. That someone was my sister.

While I was pouring my brains out on Calculus and the like during the fall, she began her own Kingdom Hearts game of her own–to the point where she passed where I was in game. Not that I minded or anything. It’s just fortunate to be younger and have time to play video games without worrying about failing a midterm. And no, I didn’t fail my midterms. Gladly.

I continued my game for the heck of it. I came to this point where I was almost finished with the game yet was particularly lazy. She was stuck in the battle with Luxord so she made me pass that part to show her how I could beat him. So I did. Yay? I guess. At that point, she just made me finish the game. It was three in the morning after defeating Xemnas’ last stage for like 371892 times. Stupid flying light sabers.

Point is, I finished the game. I enjoyed the ending yet I still felt incomplete. Like I needed more out of playing with my game console. It wasn’t as fun as before. I think part of that had to do with the idea of being rushed into it. Maybe it has to do with age? Oh my, I hope I didn’t just grow out of my love for RPGs!

But then, it hit me today. How I just want to relive that moment of being fascinated with a game because it was particularly intriguing. Not because everyone was playing it, and they told you it was pretty awesome, so you had to play it. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love my Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy. But when it comes down to it, my love for RPGs will forever be rooted in Legend of Legaia.

Unlike almost everyone else who grew up having their own Gameboy or Nintendo 64, I was unfortunate to not have one. In fact, I didn’t discover the real beauty of video games until I spent most of my summer days at my Ate Marvi’s house (A-te is a term that sorta means elder sister in Tagalog. Related or not, it means a girl who’s older than you). She had gotten a PlayStation that time and a bunch of us would play Streetfighter and Mortal Kombat. But there was this one game which she had that we didn’t really play. In fact, we couldn’t get past a certain part. That was Legend of Legaia.

Kuya Mars (Ku-ya is elder brother) started playing the game but eventually just got stuck at the point where Vahn and Noa fought Caruban atop Mount Rikuroa. I had no idea what to do since I would just watch him play. I didn’t know anything about RPGs. I was just a button masher. In fact, seeing my kuya struggle in this made me uninterested in playing RPGs for the most part. He was like the king; I looked up to him ’cause he can totally pwn on video games. So then, I just lost hope. That is, until one fateful day.

My parents bought me my very first game console. My own PlayStation! I believe I was 9 years old. The first few games I remember purchasing were Mortal Kombat, Legend of Legaia and DDR (with the dance mat to boot). There was a limited selection of CDs where I purchased my PlayStation. But I had to make do.

What was it with Legend of Legaia? I didn’t know anything about it. Neither did anyone else since it was an unpopular game. Since I had prior experience with it already–by that, I mean just staring at the blocky people do Kung Fu on screen–I told myself I’d give it a go. I’d give this RPG a chance.

So eventually I got to the point where my kuya got stuck. At 9 years old, I was pretty much bland about the situation. “Oh great, now what?” It seemed that I didn’t even want to bother or try. But for some reason, I beat him. I beat that beastly Caruban. I beat that dang monster my kuya couldn’t even defeat. With this, it felt so rewarding having somewhat surpassed my kuya. I smashed that monster and revived the brilliant Genesis tree, thus freeing Drake Kingdom of ze evil mist! Har har!

And this is all where it began. Eventually, I conquered the game (more than five times LOL). I felt this attachment to the characters more than ever. There was more to a video game than just pretty graphics (though, might I add, Legend of Legaia had pretty sweet specs for a game made in 1998). There was a story. There was music. Emotion?! This was also the reason why I wanted to be a lefty; Noa was left-handed. Shallow, I know. But c’mon, she can seriously kick butt!

My numerous creative ideas stemmed from the influence of RPGs. They said video games are bad for you. I think not. It’s what broadened my mind and inspired me to do the things I do right now. From video editing to writing stories. From drawing to playing the guitar. Every little thing.

I still retain that ultimate goal of working at Square Enix someday. Hah, sounds impossible, I know. I’ll keep dreaming. But for now, how about someone give me a copy of Legend of Legaia? I’d love to revisit my roots.

Roots? Get it? Legend of Legaia, Genesis trees? Trees have roots? Hahaha. Okay, I’ll shut up now.